You Compl.....Infuriate me!

I'm having a conversation with him right now on Instant Messenger. I finally just told him why i'm upset. I feel like his fallback girl and he basically ignored me for 6 months. He made excuses, tried to say "you didn't call either" and "that happens with all new relationships, people's friendships suffer." And when I brought up the fact that he didn't come see my play that he promised he'd come see 3 times he just told me how his car wasn't working and how he thought he could get it fixed but turns out he couldn't. NO I'm sorry. NO explanation as to why he didn't call and say "i know this is important to you but I can't make it". He just basically continued talking to me as if nothing happened and is now talking on and on about HIMSELF and HIS new apartment. I really wish I had the balls to tell him to go stick it up his ass. But the truth is that I'm just still terrified of him never wanting me again. I have such issues...

He's a sweet talking sugar coated...Candyman

* I don't know what to say here that would be acceptable after my seriously huge absence from blogging. I realize I am that friend that never calls and never writes and then just shows up a month later and expects love and affection and doesn't know why you haven't called. I'm Sorry.



* I'm not really sorry, I've been very happy and busy and excited over the last couple of months and you should all just be happy for me damnit!.

* I've been directing a play! I haven't directed a full length, fully produced play since 2004 and I have to tell you it feels SO good. I miss the theatre even though I have had my hand in it for the last couple of years working with my community theatre. There is just something so incredible about directing and working with actors and just watching them find their characters and seeing them light up when they are having fun.


Most of them anyway.

I have a couple of them that are extremely neurotic and nervous and second guess my choices all the time and they have formed their little club and won't really let me in. Other than that, the show's going great! We have one more weekend left and then I actually get to go to sleep before 11 at night.


* I seem to have become addicted to Xtina's new song "candyman" it's like the dirtiest, naughtiest version of "boogey woogey bugle boy". Me Rikey.

* I'm intrigued by this website Prosper.com. It is private person to person lending. A unique approach and based on the buzz and the reviews it seems to be working well for folks. I'll let you know what I find out.


* I just finished watching CSI, Grissom better be ok GODDAMNIT, or I'm going to be pretty pissed off.


* I wouldn't mind getting smooched right now.

* 'Just sayin.