Wednesday, June 13, 2007

Blast from the Past

I have had a breakthrough moment. I am completely, 100% over him.

You may be asking yourself "but wait, that post was back in January, we haven't heard anything about him in a very long time."

You'd be right. He got himself a girlfriend. After which he pretty much just stopped talking to me. Oh yes he did try to Instant Message me 2 times but I didn't respond either time (once because I was sleeping and had left my laptop on and once because I was seething with anger and I decided not to respond) I have been around and around over this in my mind and at one point thought to myself "well I shouldn't really be upset because it's not like we were dating, I mean we were just 'having some fun', right?"
Then I realized you don't just IGNORE your friends because you have a girlfriend. Sure he tried to IM me, and sure I didn't respond but he does happen to have my phone number. I also know he text messages because he used to text me about 10 times a day at one point! It's not like I was unreachable. I was just unreachable when it was convenient for HIM. When he wasn't spending time with his girlfriend.

Well I'm sorry, I am not here for your schedule.

Recently I was surfing about and saw that he had updated his blog and in it he talks about breaking up with his girlfriend. He also had a post about moving into a new place although he had to move out of his old place about 2 weeks before the new one was available. Once I read this I immediately knew I'd be hearing from him soon. I could just feel it. "Once he has that apartment, he's going to call me".

I SHOULD PUT MONEY ON THIS SHIT.

He moved into his apartment on Sunday and guess who IM's me today? I'll give you one damn guess.

And as always his conversation was mostly focused on himself.....

HIM: evenin'
ME: hi.
HIM: hey, a response! how've you been? (he's so amazed at a resonse, might I remind you that he has my phone number, not like i was unreachable)
ME: good, busy. you?
HIM: insanely busy. was more or less homeless for 2 weeks
ME: oh that's never good
HIM: well, it was worth it. I was waiting for the perfect apt. to come available
ME: very cool. the holy grail the perfect apt.
HIM: so it was worth it to couch surf for a while. prolly only "perfect" by my standards... most people wouldn't agree. but it's cheap, not scungy, and in the U. district. it's just miniscule
ME: not always bad
HIM: for me, right now, I think it's a really good thing. help me simplify.I have too much crap.
ME: most of us do.
HIM: better to live cheap, pare down, and save up. this place is $500 a month, all utils paid save cable
ME: awesome
HIM: and I'm one block off the ave, 3 blocks from work
ME: score
HIM: how're things going over there? how'd the play go? (The play might I add that I asked him to come see and he told me 2 times "of course I will be there." He wasn't.)
ME: i'm sorry i can't really chat now, i'm on a conference call I was just checking in to see if my boss was online.... (I realize I get a little bitchy here, it's not like I can't type and listen at the same time, i mean I'm doing it now but I just am so tired of this crap from him!)
HIM: oh, ok. talk at'cha later

I cannot tell you how much better I feel. Although I know at some point this is going to come to a head when he wants to see me and to be frank,I don't really think I want to see him. I'll deal with that when it happens but it feels so good to know that I am no longer emotionally pining and attached.

I refuse to be the fallback girl.

4 comments:

Melancholy Trollop said...

I refuse to be the Fallback Girl! I like that line!

Party Girl said...

whoo-hoo! High fives all around!

Such an awesome feeling, isn't it?

You're right. He didn't ask anything about you until the very end.
I also hate it when it's all on their schedule. Then when they are once again alone, boom! Back to you.

Grrrr.

HST said...

Thanks PG, somehow I knew you'd understand.

MT-That's my new band name...

ptg said...

way to go, babe...it's hard sometimes, but totally worth it in the end. you are SO much better than him - besides, he's a user and you can do much better than him. fall back girl, you ain't.